I wrote this a year ago and it has been by far the biggest year of my life surrendering into the unknown, its actually been super interesting as ive leaned into this surrendering my mind has tried its hardest to bring me out back into trying to know. Its been a massive initiation but also extremely powerful
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I'm a recovering worrier.
I'm also a bit of a sci fi /magic movie geek 🤓
I resonate quite a lot with Newt Scamander.
He's a little rebellious to authority as he follows his heart and just does what he knows is right.
He's a little cheeky 😜
He likes to keep to himself and only opens up for special people.
Now let's talk worrying.
I used to easily fall into worrying about my future and the future of humanity.
My main programming around worry was money.
Of course this came from having a douchedad.
A new terminology I create which you guessed it stands for a dad that's a bit of a douchebag.
Whilst I came to terms with my dad not being present in my life, him being a douchedad made it really challenging for my mum to provide for us financially.
This program of stress around money 💰 was then imprinted into me.
Pretty much my whole life I have fluctuated in my financial situation going from great highs to great lows.
As someone who is a manifesting generator and who is highly intuitive I thrive by living in the now.
Challenge I face though is sometimes I believe I can create money quicker than eventuates in the 3D and have a tendency to over commit which then can leave me floundering financially.
When this happens I drop out of the now and start to fluctuate between anxiety of an unknown future and beating myself up about the mistakes I made and why I didn't see them coming.
This is enhanced by the overall fuckery that's happening in the world right now which can be very ungrounding.
Recently though as I watched Fantastic Beasts and where to find them I heard this quote and it really hit me.
I was the one causing all this extra hurt and it's ok just to surrender to the unknown world.
It requires a deep level of trust that you will be ok.
So whatever your inherited stories are or your current situation.
You will be ok, you've got this, surrender to trusting that you will be ok.
No matter how worrying the thoughts are that are flying through your brain ðŸ§
It will all work out in the end 🙂
and if worrying has taken you over I'm always here to chat if your feeling low and can't see a way out.
all you have to do is reach out.
You've got this I believe in you.
Remember who you are 🙂
Creating Radically Healthy Humans
Nicholas Fairbairn AKA That Health Dude
CHEK Practitioner - Rehab Specialist