Failing Humanity - this has been on my conscious for quite some time and to be honest it's something that keeps me awake most nights so I'm guessing others are going through this and hopefully this helps them like it is for me writing it.
Some of us have been lucky or you could say cursed with extremely advanced intuition that can vision far into the future I wanted to make it clear this doesn't make us any better than anyone else it's just a skill set we have just like someone may have artistic talent or skills in sport.
The thing that keeps me awake at night is I feel like I failed, I literally knew something was coming for over 10 years and as it was getting closer I could feel it.
When convid first happened I knew instantly this is it, all I wanted to do was tell every single person I cared about, then I wanted to let as many people know as I could.
I tried every single tactic I could think of and at first I really thought me and others had done enough to get through to people.
Then it hit me with the shock of how little people I reached, I felt like a complete failure as a man and it really broke me.
I was like what the fucks the point of having this intuition if I can't help the people I care about.
So I distanced myself from many, of course many distanced themselves from me because they thought I and those like me were crazy.
I acted like I didn't care and even made crude jokes to try to keep people away
But The real I distanced myself was because I felt ashamed that I couldn't get through to them and to be honest it felt easier because it meant I didn't have to deal with the aftermath of what's occurring now and what's still to come.
It wasn't because I don't love them or hold them dear, you hear people say terms like sheeple, zombies, normies and I truly believe people only say this because they can't sit with the feeling of failing their loved ones.
Truly our relationships mean the world to us and there is nothing more important, of course I've met many other crazies over the last few years which has been comforting but part of me wishes we could go back to the way things were.
I'd love nothing more than having another go to see if I could do things differently.
I don't know if this hits me different because I'm a man and we have an instinctive feeling inside of us to protect and keep people safe and knowing that I didn't haunts me everyday.
It's taken its toll on me and it still does each day but I put my chin up and carry on because I know this is just the beginning and whilst I feel like I let everyone down in the first battle I also feel a rising in men and human consciousness for the the next, this is a battle for human consciousness and I have faith that we will win.
And whilst yes I felt broken, it also fully cracked me open.
All I can say is the dark forces really pissed off the wrong lions you've awaken many of us from a deep slumber and we will enthusiastically fuck your shit up on all planes of existence.
Our greatest strength in humanity is our kindness so let's all help each other through this time and show them what we are made of