Thank you for all the birthday wishes yesterday I really appreciate it.
I'm not going to lie this last year has been the most challenging year of my life it came with incredible highs and devasting lows.
I feel like I've been stripped back to the very core of my being and been completely humbled.
I faced some major core beliefs that I was not aware that existed within me including
I'm not lovable
I'm a loser
I can't afford to be healthy and happy
I'm dumb
I have no friends
I'm a failure
I'm crazy (this one's still debatable jokes 🤣)
I cried myself to sleep many nights and wondered why I had got myself here yet again.
Why do I keep creating this cycle, one major thing that happened was my glandular fever had come back so my body was physically exhausted, I was like how? The amount of work I do on myself to stay healthy compared to most people and still I'm here again, I really had to reflect where I was out of alignment with my core values and own it, I felt myself becoming the victim again and I had really powerful and profound moments which shifted me out of this.
I created where I'm at so I can connect even deeper with who I am.
I also regained massive amounts of faith in the human race as I saw hearts opening up everywhere to support me. There is to many to list but here's a few
Thomas and Mieke Lashford for giving me a place to stay and heal, the stress of feeling like I'm going to be homeless or sell my goats just to get a roof over my head was taking a major toll on me, with the floods and so many moving from the south to Queensland the housing crisis was intense add 4 goats to the picture and it was almost impossible, add on top of that also having no car for 6 weeks.
They went above and beyond which as I've got to know them is just in their nature and for anyone that's ever coming for a holiday up this way I'd highly recommend checking out @summersethill they have created something pretty magic here, they are also going to hold some amazing events.
Mark Warren for always being there and helping me get back on my feet.
Finlay William Walters for helping me get my car back on the road after being completely shafted and fleeced
Samantha Bulloch always just being her queen self and helping me process but also holding me accountable
Alina Fiona for being such a caring, kind and just beautiful human being the amount of times you were there for me I am eternally grateful and of course your mum Bev for her hug, chats and having lunches really warmed my soul.
Sam Cameron for helping me get grounded in my new pad with an epic new shelter for the goats
Faye Fairbairn for always being there but also calling me on my BS.
Last of all to me I'm proud of myself for surrounding myself around such incredible people as well being brave enough to ask for help as well as open enough to receive it.
This year has been a defining time in who I am it has shifted me into living out of a space of gratitude for everything that is.
I had the choice am I going to sit an wollow in a pitty party or surrender to the gift of life and see the magic in everything.
Magic is the way I choose to live from now on and I am so grateful to be on earth at this time in history a time when we truly get to shake things up and create the world we know we all deserve.
Love you all and thanks for being awesome 🙂