The other day I was at the conscious Life festival and I bumped into a good friend Deb from Indelight check her out on insta
I was drawn to this bottle number 78 and yet again my intuition was on track, whenever I have major changes in my life i sometimes lose faith in source,spirit, GOD whatever you want to call it and start to create a pity party in my life and fall into victimhood.
However this time feels different it feels I as if I am going to break a cycle and shift something on a deep spiritual level and what is happening now is to literally wake me up out of a slumber so I can be of service to the world.
There is some part of me that blocks and holds back from my full potential to connect to source and to share my intuition.
Which is actually what I am destined to do I know its my strength.
Recently though its started to intensify to the point I have found it difficult to function in the "real" world, like I have needed to ground myself so much as it kind of feels like I am taking off,
sometimes I feel I am not here, I constantly am finding myself say where did the day go.
To the point I have been questioning myself am I losing it, am I going insane (The answer could still be yes haha)
Its actually quite a frightening feeling its kind of like being the happiest and saddest you have ever been at the same time.
Happy because you are merging with your full spiritual self and gifts and sad because your life had to fall apart for it to happen.
I feel its the hardest part for so many of us that are the bridges of the realms as to be honest most of us just want a simple life of peace and joy but instead it feels like the universes most narly roller coaster and at times your just like I want off.
The universe normally listens for a bit, safety and stability follows but then its time to go again where you lose everything you love and care for to serve the greater good of humanity.
Its like we are destined to complete our mission even if we try not to.
I'm excited and at the same time terrified to venture into deepest parts of magenta which looks dark an ominous but is actually spectacularly beautiful.
I will have to go through the darkest parts of my shadow and fully own them which is going to be pretty tough, ultimately we all have the illusion that we are great people with the heart of gold which is true to some extent however we all have some pretty nasty parts to us that we seem to create scotomas about the darkness within.
As a 6 year 2022 and me being a master 33/6 ultimately I can't hide from myself this year its literally written in the numbers and once I face the darkness the true magic will come to light, the man I know I can be.
It seems to be when you have nothing else to lose it gives you the courage to go all in.
So in saying that
I invite spirit into all areas of my life.
And so it is.
Creating Radically Healthy Humans
Nicholas Fairbairn
CHEK Practitioner - Functional Health Coach