Your financial situation does not determine your worth. Over the last few years I made some financial mistakes, these mistakes got me into financial positions that I never felt possible. I found myself feeling deep amounts of shame, guilt and I even had the voice in my head calling me a loser. I thought I would share this as I find for many of us in the western society, how much you earn or what you have is directly linked with how you feel about yourself. For many people the whole lockdown shenanigans affected their incomes hard. I'd always factored in a 30% drop as I am a bit of a prepper and all the scenarios I could see that seemed pretty drastic especially because I was in growth. However when a few months hit 40% drop and on top of that other investments failing, having unexpected outgoings eg my car I bought ended up being a lemon with a dodgy gearbox and that was $5000 i hadn't factored in. Add on top of this having my glandular fever come back plus a relationship breakdown. To get back on top I sold my investment unit which gave me quite a decent payout however the investments I put this win fall into either failed miserably or stayed stagnant. Drying up my emergency money. It was such an interesting experience to witness as there was so many levels of denial, then the shame comes in and you want to hide it from the world as you feel like a complete and utter failure. Many times I had to catch myself questioning my self worth and I could witness the spiral down. I am sharing this as I feel so many are in the same situation and especially us men who as supposed to be providers when we fail at this role we feel useless and like giving up. What's the point of it all, I can't see a way out are words that we will say to ourselves but we will hide it from the rest of the world as its embarrassing. I don't know a solution to this right now, for myself I am finally out of the red, thinking clear and getting on top of my health again, actually lets talk about this. When your financial situation and health are shit at the same time we feel drawn to fix our financial situation which in turn generally brings our health down, then even if we fix our financial situation momentarily the health declining further ultimately brings down the financial situation again. Focusing on health takes longer, it goes completely against logic and western society as you can see your financial situation getting worse and its seems like you are being ignorant to it. However if you give yourself the permission to take the time to heal then you will have the energy to create income far greater than you had before. The problem I find is we actually create a see saw between both, We start to look after our health but then our programming brings the shame right to the surface so we go back into work mode, then because we didn't allow the time our health suffers again and rinse and repeat until complete breakdown of both health and finances and generally the universe chucks a few other things in to for good measure. I find when we actually openly acknowledge the feelings e.g shame, embarrassment, guilt and fully sit in them then we can move through, problem is we fight so hard not to acknowledge it. So for all of you that are out there going through this cycle its OK, don't give up, even if you can't see a way out this storm will pass. Your are worthy and when you allow yourself to sit in it it will eventually dissipate and the core of who you are will be revealed and that core is bloody beautiful and capable of creating magic, you've done great things before and you'll do it again this time even more aligned, so chin up you've got this. And you can always reach out if you need a chat, I will make the time to be available for you free of charge with no expectations on my end 🙂 Creating Radically Healthy Humans Nicholas Fairbairn CHEK Practitioner - Functional Health Coach